Sunday, October 23, 2011


What is uttered from the heart alone
Will win the hearts of others to your own.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Monday, October 17, 2011

How To Get Cute Baby Pictures.

I read an article about how to get the cutest pictures of your baby. Because, let's face it, no one is perfect all the time. So this article had a lot of great tips.
So I wanted to show some of my baby's great pictures...along with some of her not so great ones.
Tip Number One: Get shots of your baby doing what she naturally does.
Little Miss loves to suck her thumb.

Tip Number Two: Make sure your baby is comfortable in her environment.
I know this one. It is really difficult to get Little Miss to take pictures when she's at a studio. She's just not comfortable. But when she's at home, I'm able to get a lot more, because it's the environment she is used to.

Tip Number Three: Take a lot of pictures.
I take so many pictures of Little Miss. Possibly thousands. But I only keep hundreds. Because odds are the first couple of shots aren't quite what I want.

Tip Number Four (And the best way to get Little Miss to smile): Be silly!
I constantly make a fool of myself. Why? Because I will do pretty much anything to make my baby happy. And the same goes for nearly every parent. Your little monster is far more important than your reputation, so act goofy. Her laughter is totally worth it.

And, because no baby is always happy, here are some not so great pictures.

Yes. That's my girl. <3

Are You Looking For Inspiration? Look Here.

Garth Catterall-Heart.

Mahatma Gandhi.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

I've Been There, Too.

I came across an article tonight while engaging in my nightly relaxation routine. One of the activities of my routine is to go onto MSN or Yahoo and read a couple of eye-catching articles. Why? Because it keeps me up to date with the world; it expands my knowledge; it opens new doors; it gives a new view on topics; it helps me settle down before going to bed.
One of the articles tonight was on depression. To be clear: this is not the normal ups and downs we all feel. As explained briefly here, depression makes just simply living dreadful.
I seem to be stumbling upon articles at the exact right moment lately.
This article was about the dangers of untreated depression. Dangers of depression? I'm sorry, but that kind of seems like a Duh question. The most extreme danger of not getting treated for depression is suicide. But I didn't realize just how much more you risk when it's ignored. It can lower your immune system. Now that I think about it, yeah, makes sense. There's also that constant pain. It's a kind of pain that is...consuming. Always there. Headaches, back aches, a gnawing feeling in the pit of your stomach, emptiness.
In case you couldn't tell, I've dealt with depression before. I understand how hard it is to first accept that you have depression...and realize it really isn't your fault. It is a medical condition. And it is something that can be treated. 
If a doctor diagnosed you with cancer, you wouldn't just shrug and say "well, maybe it'll go away on its own." You'd get the treatment necessary to make yourself better. It's really the same thing with depression, only sometimes the treatment includes therapy as well as medication.
The irony of it really is that depression often times makes you feel helpless and hopeless...and thus you have no desire or motivation to help yourself.
Like I said, I've dealt with depression. And I will probably continue to deal with it throughout life. It's not a weakness. It's just something that is a part of my life. And I have to know the signs and how to get help if I need it. So I feel like it's important for everyone to know the signs, how to get help, and the dangers of not getting help.
So, if you feel like you or a loved one maybe be suffering from depression, talk to your doctor. (Hey, I sounded just like the commercials there! But really, talk to doc.)

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

The Fire of Drift-Wood.

We sat within the farm-house old,
  Whose windows, looking o'er the bay,
Gave to the sea-breeze damp and cold,
  An easy entrance, night and day.

Not far away we saw the port,
  The strange, old-fashioned, silent town,
The lighthouse, the dismantled fort,
  The wooden houses, quaint and brown.

We sat and talked until the night,
  Descending, filled the little room;
Our faces faded from the sight,
  Our voices only broke the gloom.

We spake of many a vanished scene,
  Of what we once had thought and said,
Of what had been, and might have been,
  And who was changed, and who was dead;

And all that fills the hearts of friends,
  When first they feel, with secret pain,
Their lives thenceforth have separate ends,
  And never can be one again;

The first slight swerving of the heart,
  That words are powerless to express,
And leave it still unsaid in part,
  Or say it in too great excess.

The very tones in which we spake
  Had something strange, I could but mark;
The leaves of memory seemed to make
  A mournful rustling in the dark.

Oft died the words upon our lips,
  As suddenly, from out the fire
Built of the wreck of stranded ships,
  The flames would leap and then expire.

And, as their splendor flashed and failed,
  We thought of wrecks upon the main,
Of ships dismasted, that were hailed
  And sent no answer back again.

The windows, rattling in their frames,
  The ocean, roaring up the beach,
The gusty blast, the bickering flames,
  All mingled vaguely in our speech;

Until they made themselves a part
  Of fancies floating through the brain,
The long-lost ventures of the heart,
  That send no answers back again.

O flames that glowed!  O hearts that yearned!
  They were indeed too much akin,
The drift-wood fire without that burned,
  The thoughts that burned and glowed within.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Losing My Religion.

Means so much more than just the words.

Today's Word of the Day is Arbitrary.

It has come to my attention that there is some concern about my feelings toward love and marriage.
When someone says "I don't believe in love; I don't believe in marriage," the concern trigger is flipped. And I have said these things. I would like to say that those statements, in my case, are inaccurate.
I do believe in love. I enjoy romance novels and chick flicks. I like seeing people walking together and holding hands. I never realized how much I could love someone until I met my daughter. Thus, I believe in love. I believe love is arbitrary.
When I dated this guy early in high school, I loved him. Up until that point, I had never loved someone as much as I loved him. I dated more guys, and each guy I loved. Each time, it was a little different. Each time, I had never loved as much as I loved then. Because of what I had experienced, my definition of love was constantly changing. It still is, and it will continue to change as I grow and change.
I believe marriage can work. There are plenty of people who have made their marriages work. And I don't mean this as in "'til death" but more as the amount of happiness sustained. Please note that happiness is arbitrary, and can only be defined by the couple, both as a unit and as individuals, in that relationship. A couple can be absolutely miserable and remain married forever, and that is not success. A couple can be happy, grow as people, and realize they want different things and thus get divorced. Yes, the marriage has ended. The couple is still good friends. That is success. A couple can have their ups and downs and remain married forever. That is success. A couple can start off rocky, never work through things, and get divorced. That is not success. Success, you see, is also arbitrary. It changes from couple to couple, depending on their individual needs and their specific marital situation.
So, I do believe in love and marriage.
This is what I don't believe.
I don't believe that I need to be married to be happy. And I don't believe that in order to have a successful life, I have to be married. I don't believe marriage should be a goal to living a good life.
I understand that when people say, "You just need to have hope you'll find someone someday," they just want me to be happy. 
Here's the thing. I don't not want that "hope." I do not want the responsibilities of a relationship. I don't want the responsibilities, the time, the energy that goes into even thinking about a relationship. I don't want to dream about "finding someone someday."
I have so many more responsibilities that I have to deal with here and now without adding that to the mix. I have work. I have school. I have the raising of a child. Why would I want to take what little time I get to myself and give it to working at a relationship. Selfish? Yeah. It is. I absolutely agree. But I don't have the time to give. 
So, to conclude, I believe in love; I believe in marriage. I do not want a relationship right now, or anytime in the foreseeable future. So, if you feel you must give me the hope of finding myself a suitable man to make me happy and provide for me and my child, please be prepared for me to inform you that I do not need a man to make me happy, and I can provide for my child myself. Just be aware that I probably will not be so polite.

Saturday, October 8, 2011


I just want to say that...
I absolutely love October! I love Halloween!
And I am absolutely excited for my Little Miss's first Halloween. :D
Yes, this does mean that there is going to be an excess amount of candy...because she can't eat candy...oh, darn, who's gonna eat all that candy? Hahaha.
But still, I am so excited to take her trick-or-treating! Especially since she can't eat the candy, so I don't have to worry about her getting a sugar high and getting sick to her stomach yet!
Little Miss's preparation plans for her first Halloween:
1. Get adorable pictures in my costume.
2. Go to a pumpkin patch and help Mom pick out pumpkins.
3. Carve said pumpkins with adorable little faces (I'll let Mom handle that part)
4. Ride a hay ride? Mom says maybe, we'll see.
5. Go trick-or-treating!
So, needless to say, Little Miss is gonna be quite busy this month. And so will I.
I'll probably be posting photos soon.
Happy Preparation for Halloween!!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Bright Side.

It's been a rough couple of weeks.
What a depressing way to start a post when you haven't been around in awhile? It's like, when you see an old friend, and you say, "hey, how've you been?" and they reply, "life freaking sucks." You don't really expect them to answer like that. You expect a "good, how are you?" But then life intervenes, and you realize you just can't follow the script anymore.
Life isn't all rainbows and unicorns. Sometimes there's a broken down Chevy and storm clouds.
I'm tired. I think that's my main problem right now. Between school, work, raising Little Miss, family and personal issues, I am emotionally drained, and approaching mental exhaustion.
On the bright side, I had a fabulous massage today thanks to my friend. Definitely needed. And this weekend, I had a great time at the game with my friends while my aunt watched Little Miss.
It's nice to get breaks from time to time.
So, I guess even when life is a freaking avalanche, there's always a bright side.

Approaching Another Milestone.

Wow, it has been forever since I have written on here.
Slacker! I know.
Well, Little Miss is approaching yet another milestone...
Yes, she is trying to scoot. It's pretty funny. She wants to move so badly, and gets kind of pissed that she can't.
Anyways, here's the video of her trying to scoot.
As you can see, she is growing fast. As soon as she figures out she has to push with her arms, too, I'm sure she'll be moving faster than I can keep up with.